My Mama

Last Friday morning I got a phone call that was totally unexpected from my mom. She had "the voice." My mom is one of the world's most optimistic and enthusiastic people, but this voice is well known to those who know her well. It is her something is wrong, but I'm trying not to let it show voice. It's pretty much a giveaway now though.

The news she had to share this time was that doctors had found a mass in her heart. I don't remember all that she said after that because I was still reeling from those words. I myself tried to put on my brave voice as I heard my mom tell me she was headed to the hospital and major surgery was coming very soon. My own heart was filled with fear and a strong desire to hug my mommy. Charlie came in to find me tearing up, so I filled him in with the news. He immediately tried to google the name I thought mom had told me, but I was completely wrong. He just held me for awhile too. Abigail of course had no understanding, but kept coming to me and making animal noises to make me smile since she could sense something was bothering Mommy.

At that moment I wanted to jump in the car and run to TN as fast as I could get there. Being that I am 37 weeks pregnant, that's not really a possiblity right now. Being away from my family is hard right now. I want to be there even if it's just sitting in a waiting room together. I feel so far away.

One thing I know though is that God is holding my family. He is everywhere, and He is keeping us all connected. His hand is evident already in his care for my mom. The fact that this tumor even found show that He is there. The doctors said that this isn't normally found this easily. So despite some scary news, we are praising God for finding this mass.

Tomorrow is surgery day. I ask that anyone who reads this prays for my mom. God is the ultimate healer and He will hold her. Mom, I love you , and wish that I were there to bring some sunshine. Caroline and I are going to be here praying for you all day.